tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7613535891957050239.post2722740339040483707..comments2023-03-24T06:53:24.745-07:00Comments on Carrie's Plethora of Random Thoughts: Baby Edy's Tiny Feet Are Tattooed Everywhere!carriesworldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09531469910223305449noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7613535891957050239.post-30876565563548569122011-08-26T18:50:56.812-07:002011-08-26T18:50:56.812-07:00First of all, thank you for posting the story of h...First of all, thank you for posting the story of how I came to have a stupid mouse tattoo on my ankle (and for leaving out the more embarrassing details). Second, thank you for posting the actual picture of how perfectly Edy's little right foot covered it up. As soon as I was old enough to legally get a tattoo (using my very own ID), I regretted ever getting that dumb mouse. Every time I saw it, I cringed internally and every time someone asked what it was I tried to put them off and glaze over the very permanent dumb thing. Today, when I look at the place that used to be a source of shame, I see a perfect, tiny footprint from our Edy. I carry her with me everywhere. <br /><br />I could never believe that everything happens for a reason. That God had his reasons for taking Edy, or any of that rubbish... I do choose to believe that God does take what has happened and uses it. There is something here, I think... Although I would much prefer to live in a world where Edy still lives and I still have a dumb mouse tattoo. <br /><br />I keep thinking about this time last year and my heart just breaks all over again. It's amazing how used to this pain I have gotten. It hasn't gone away and I doubt that it will, but I am getting used to the way it feels. It doesn't mean I miss her any less or that my heart doesn't ache for her. It absolutely does. Still, there are times when my guard is down and I am overcome with grief and sadness washes over me like a tidal wave. Acceptance seems as far away today as it did the day she died. I don't know if that will ever change.<br />Today I am proud and honored to have an Edy footprint. She reminds me to be strong and to endure. I will always be her Aunt Eli and she will always be my perfect niece. <br /><br />I love you, sister.Elihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15969412792177098992noreply@blogger.com